OK, let’s do this. First of all I am a husband and parent to 9 children. All be it (I did feel anyway) not a very good one. I’m a project manager in the true sense of the word. And if I say something is to happen, it happens.
Until recently I lived a life where I wanted and usually got the best of everything, and I mean everything, the newest gadgets, the most expensive of everything. I didn’t really look at or care for what I was doing to the world or myself or even how what I did in my life affected my own family. Pretty strange really for someone who took pride in working in the renewable energy industry? I managed a business in the same manner, without due regard.
As is usually the case when you don’t focus in the right direction the business and family life started to decline. But of course I was so self absorbed I didn’t take notice of the warning signs or my beautiful wife. I just ignored them both and continued on my way. As you would expect, business and personal life caught up with me.
Once I actually took note of what was occurring my attitude to everything changed, I gave up on my business and failed my family. This behavior affected those around me and those associated with the business. But again I didn’t even notice. I basically gave up on everything, sat in my corner and sulked and sulked. All the while things around me continued to deteriorate.
Through one reason or another late in 2008 my wife and I relocated our family to another state for a “change”, It didn’t work, the sulking and head in the sand behaviors continued. This lasted almost six months. Thankfully my beautiful wife finally broke through my thick head with some home truths. I must say it hurt.
BUT it opened my eyes… What on earth am I doing? I have a beautiful wife and a wonderful family who are all healthy. So what was my issue? There are so many things in the world that I could be focused on but I had just wasted all that time feeling sorry for myself. It was like the proverbial light bulb turned on.
If nothing else the word POSITIVE stuck with me. Focus on the positive! I know I have to face the consequences of my past actions and that is going to cause pain for my family, but we will survive! The learning’s out of this are so big I can not even begin to document them. I can see where I went wrong. With that wonderful thing called Hindsight, I believe I can move forward without making the same mistakes………………… And with these learning’s my wife and I have begun to plan.
Please visit my blog regularly and watch my trials and tribulations and our plan grow and turn into reality. You may even be able to help!
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