Yet again its been a while since I’ve posted on the blog.
I guess by what you can see in the previous post, we have had some issues to deal with and are still dealing with them. As yet we still do not have another house to move into. No doubt the real estate agent has now filed with the small claims tribunal to have us removed from this house. But until we have somewhere else to go, what are we meant to do? Live on the side of the road? Is this what our world has come too? That if you run into financial problems the first thing is to sink the boots in and then keep kicking until you don’t move anymore? Because that’s what it feels like.
The hurt and humiliation of going through what we are experiencing right now and from what I can see will be facing for some time to come is nothing like I have ever experienced before. I grew up in a rather poor family and thought I had it tough, but I never saw or experienced the issues that I’m now sure my father went through while I was growing up. So in that and with all the failings I saw in my father he did a good job in trying to spare me from the hurt I now feel. That’s probably something I don’t ever remember saying to him “Thank you Dad”.
Cate has and still is working extremely hard to try and fund us a new home, keep Project 18 moving forward, push for project 18′s registration as a charity and the creation of planet you. And it has taken a huge toll… Not to mention my inability to deal with all of this in a mature manner this of course causes even greater pain for Cate and the children. And for that I am truly sorry to my family. If, by the way, anybody on the Sunshine Coast actually reads this post, if you happen to know of any 4 bedroom (or more) houses available ANYWHERE on the Sunny Coast can you please let me know??? We really are desperate now.
On the up side this whole experience has highlighted to me where I had made wrong decisions in the past and has taught me should I ever come across similar situations what I should look for and how to make more acceptable decisions. I know that given that wonderful gift of hindsight, I will not make the same mistakes that I have previously made and therefore give a better chance to never place my family in this type of situation ever again.
I’m generally not a sociable or to be matter of fact about it, a nice person. I keep everybody at arms length and don’t let anybody into my world.. Even Cate can’t get in!! So to have people that don’t know me very well or only know me through social media offer their kind support through this time is so foreign to me. And as wrong as it is, I question why. I don’t have anything left for you to take, so why are you ringing or messaging to talk to me and offer support and some teachers and parents at my children’s school continually checking with me and being so excited when something positive happened earlier this week? Could it be that there really are genuinely nice people in this world? Have I been wrong all my life? Do I now let people in and drop my guard and set myself up for a fall or accept nice people exist?
I’ve rambled enough now:
If you get nothing else out of reading my blog, PLEASE appreciate what you have in your family and friends.
Rick
